This picture allows me to describe how things appear in my head sometimes, without using words. Unfortunately for those of you reading this, being a blog and therefore of a necessarily written nature, I'm forced to use a written form of expression that I happen to find unnecessarily limited.
The truth is that I've often heard the adage, "An idle mind is the Devil's playground," but sadly, I've paid it little heed. And while I may not necessarily believe in the 'Prince of Darkness' I do understand that there is a certain ominous truth to the whole thing. When you're not doing anything, or when you find that you're doing nothing at all, should you care to say it this way, your mind immediately goes to places that are often better left unexplored. Now, contrary to all the times that I've pointed to myself and said things like, "Or maybe that's just me," I've personally seen and heard the kinds of things that people have on their minds in times where life is a little lacking in activity, and some of that stuff is scary. Really scary!
What causes this sort of thing to happen though?
True to my nature, I've often used "idle" moments to try and figure out what has led to this idleness. This proves to be interesting because then I find myself confounded by whether or not I arrived at this idle state as a result of having nothing to do, or if I cleared my schedule of things to do so that I could savor an idle moment. Hmm... I'll leave that to the philosophers. Or the experts, neither of which I'm worthy of being at this time.
All I know is, there are times when I look forward to the idleness, and there are times when I don't because I have "productivity" on the mind. Unfortunately for me, I find myself longing to be idle when there's tons of stuff to get done, and when I'm finally free, well, that's when I wish I had something to do. Sound familiar?
Coming back to the 'deep, dark recesses of the mind' idea, briefly, the kinds of thoughts that enter my mind when I'm in idle-mind-screensaver mode are just insane. They span everything from committing the most horrendous crimes, to saving the world. Well, there are times when I've found myself thinking about a combination of both; a strange sort of middle path that involves saving the world by ridding it of every, last one of us. I hope this wasn't too intense an example, but it does help me make my point. Or maybe this is what I should have written more about; my heinous plans to rid this planet of its worthless humanity.
This picture is a good description of my mind, specifically when it's doing nothing. And it looks like I was able to convey a couple of my thoughts, in spite of the words getting in the way. Maybe I should just meditate, and embrace what comes to me, whatever it is that reveals itself to me, so that I may make peace with it. Let me save that one for New Year's.