I've been blogging for a while now, on and off mind you. But I've gotten all manner of reactions from people about it. There are some who say "Good job" and come back for more. There are some who say "Good job" and leave. And there is about 99% of all Internet users who don't really care and never say anything because this blog is only one in billions that exist.
So, why do I do it? Well, I'd like to think it's because I "have issues" and that I can't really talk to people about them. On the surface of things, this may appear to be true, epitome of passive-aggression that I am. But in reality, it's just a place where I express myself and where you can find the workings of a sometimes-certain-sometimes-all-over-the-place mind. At times I don't like it, but there are also times when I absolutely love it...the workings of the mind, that is. It's where I get to whine, and whine, and whine some more when there's hardly anything to complain about. But it's also where I can try and put the thoughts together as they come together in my head. Oh the dichotomies of life!
I enjoy being able to express myself, but I find that most of the "expressing" that I've been doing is very much related to a pendulum style of life thus far; swinging from one extreme to the other and back again, with only re-runs of existence to show for it. But, I want this blog to be more than that. Sadly, I haven't been making too much of an effort to make it so. Therefore, I would like to dedicate this post to me being a stupid ass. There's life, there's love, there's the annoyingly innocent but-I-didn't-know and there's the but-who-would-do-such-a-thing. It's tragic, really, but I can't say that I've wisened up a whole lot because I let the same, inane shite happen to me again and bloody again. Because I don't seem to ever learn. Because I don't seem to wake up and smell the shit that I've stepped in. Because there is always promise of things to come, but they never do because you have to meet these things halfway...and I haven't done a very good job of that. Enough is enough! My name is Rohin Kallat! I will change the world with my existence! For better of for worse!!! Oh ok, that was just some overstated self-assurance. Bravado, even...God forbid!
For the perfect example of an ass, I found a picture that I quite liked. It's a donkey smiling. Cho chweet! And this makes me want to propose a toast: "To knowing when I'm successful, to being able to fall with grace, pick myself up, dust myself off and smile. To smile as innocently and sweetly as this little donkey."