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Friday, February 20, 2009
Insomniac Wanderings: A mind's eye to nothingness
Dying of sleep deprivation. My eyes hurt.
Can't keep them open. It's too painful.
Can't keep them closed either. They want to see more of nothing.
It's been an intense week.
Intense on the mind.
Still holding on.
Still keeping up appearances.
That everything's alright.
That it's just a matter of time.
Lying awake. Can't stop the thinking.
The din is unbearable. Make it Stop!
But, without it, I'm lost
Fractured images melting together.
An unholy mess.
Still no clarity.
Still nothing but pain.
Hopeful of tomorrow and what it will bring.
Cowering in fear to greet the sun.
Walking around. Oblivious.
Awake. But unaware of life.
Heading into the great emptiness of being.
And so it goes.
On and on.