On doing some random research I came across some information regarding the Symbol of Chaos. Feeling a little like my life is running circles around my head, I thought it apt to try and identify how I relate to this state of affairs at this point in my life by first linking to a definition of this word because "it" sort of has a way of making an appearance every now and again. I didn't care to use the phrase "rearing its ugly head" to describe this intermittent reappearance, because apart from getting kind of used to the whole thing, I've realized that a lot of good can come from chaos. It's only human to seek out order in the world around us, so when things seem to be going radically haywire we tend to want to hide or run or act otherwise out of character to escape it all. Now I know, that there's no need to do any of that.
So, standing here, I can tell that things are up for a major sort of upheaval in my life. It won't be good, and the consequences could be far worse. However, I think I've come to a point in my life where I can safely say, "It doesn't matter to me." This is very different from the "I don't care" attitude of my youth because it's a lot more coolly confident. Some people seem to think it has a subdued psychotic edge to it, but of course I don't care to see it that way. ;-)
Looking at this image, I just thought that there was such a level of pictorial irony that I just had to post it. Like the way in which all the arrows are different in size. It was a sort of chaotic chaos message, and this is the sort of thing that I love, sorry. So, much impressed and making a connection to the way things in life are, I just had to post it.
Irony. That's the beauty of it. The fact there is chaos in my life, and that I find it funny. I'm beginning to enjoy this feeling, actually. Sure, it sounds a little insane, but all I'm doing about it is writing down how I feel about it, right? I just read in the newspaper today that there was a shooting in a German school yesterday. And you're going to sit there and call me insane? Please.
Here's to the chaos of chaos. When everything is up in the air. When all is abuzz and nothing is moving the way it should. When things can't seem to go any more wrong than they are already. That's when you smile and confidently put your best foot forward. So what if it get's run over by passing traffic, at least something will have happened for sure, and you can start from this new reference point in your life. Call it "The Day I Lost My Foot" and keep moving. Alright. That's it. I'm outta here...